ITS ME..I GUESS

Saturday, May 15, 2010

how do you exactly save a life..
emotionally or physically?
alot of questions might be passing through ur mind

some might think dat its all bout
jumping infront of a car..
tryna save someone,
someone u barely noe,or
someone ur close with..
but think bout it
wat if helping someone out of ones misery
could be saving ones life..
wat if trying to comfort a close fren
is saving a life..
and wat if being there for the ones u love
is saving a life..
the qns of 'how to save a life'
often asked
only when u feel
lost,
hurt
to see ur loved ones
in pain and sufferings
thinking dat ur partly the cause of it,
the cause of a living hell in her life
and all this feelings aint helping you
to find solutions to save them..
Dats when u start to worry alot
wondering if ur gonna lose her
or be the way u used to be wif her
coz u juz love her so so much

its the future of uncertainty..
the only way you would thought of doing
is asking her if shes alright
or assuring her
by saying 'everything's fine'
hoping with ur best wishes
dat all of this would work

how you wish dat everything
would be back to how it was in the past
a peck to the lips
or cuddling with one another
ur fingers interlocking wif hers
the comfort and warmth
when u sat wif her
while watching the sun sets
the world juz vanish
and fantasy kicks in
u thought it would not end
but everything had to crash down on u
u survive?
she survive?
dat cant be answered..
and even if u survive
isit all worth it if she doesnt?

when conversations turn cold..
awkward feelings appeared..
how u wish the past could be repeated..
but it cant no matter how hard u tried
tears roll down her cheeks
like how rain falls down on earth
pain stabs her heart
as painful as a thousand stab of a knife
nomatter how hard she tried covering..
her scars are still there
obvious through her expressions
dats when u noe its time for u to save her life..

But,
knowing 'how to save a life'
doesnt ensure a guarantee in saving her..
worst,
ignorance,
being illtreated...
despite the fact dat ur trying hard to hold on
dats how u would feel
but wat if its actually juz too painful
fr her to look at u
so its ur choice of how u wanna think bout it,
on whether u succeeded or nt..
but one thing fr sure..
u'll nvr noe unless u try
so before u actually lose them
hold em tight
tighter than you've ever hold anyone
love them more than u have ever loved anyone
and cherished em lyk it was ur last..
ily

Thursday, May 13, 2010

hey
i noe its been quite awhile since i posted and stuff
but yess
busy week, it is
packed wif mye and stuff
sry!

anw
back to blogging
and again life is screwed up
but hey
appreciate it coz this life
can nvr be repeated

sigh,
anw
plans after mye..
-make a band dat is!
-make covers
-making vids?
-and obviously......nvm
so wat do u think!?
any names fr a band dat might be nice?
tell me!
personally!
aha

timecheck 11.04pm
and i aint sleeping
worst,tmr is maths paper 2
oh jeezzzz
im pretty sure i can pass it
but nt acing it):
wish me fr the best peeps
have been reading comics and all
fascinated by the drawings and shit..
really really envy them
sigh
envious,envious
anw
im getting high
so before i blog anything dats worthless/stupid
i better get ma ass off ma seat!
i gtg!
bye!
nitez

hey
nth much to say
i guess the vid says it all
a video defines a thousand meanings..
imy